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I'M WORKING ON OVERDRIVE AND THIS 101 CONSTRUCTION NOISE IS MAKING ME FUCKING CRAZY

Dude, I’m working like a maniac— have to get a lot of shit done— it’s crunch-time. And this 101 construction noise is making me absolutely fucking crazy(er)!!!! I have Misophonia. Misophonia which is a disorder in which certain sounds trigger emotional or physiological responses that some might perceive as unreasonable given the circumstance. Those who have Misophonia might describe it as when a sound “drives you crazy.” Their reactions can range from anger and annoyance to panic and the need to flee.” Seriously, noises such as beeping construction noise; jack-hammering for 18-hours STRAIGHT……makes me FUCKING RAGEFUL. Those who have Misophonia know exactly what I’m talking about. And for those of ya’ll who don’t have it……DO NOT TELL ME TO FUCKING CALM DOWN OR TO JUST “IGNORE IT”. I will cut a ho. I’ve fantasized going over there and freaking out on those construction people— like, shooting them…..to death. Yeah, hardcore, but I’ll never do that. I’m just letting you know the level of my RAGE. And now I hear the beeping noise even when it’s not happening!!— which is fucking awesome. Motherfucker, the beeping again. Ya’ll, I’ve gotta go downstairs and decompress— I’m gonna lose it……or grind my teeth away. Ugh……

I’ll say this, I’m stressed, but blessed. The ONLY way to get shit done is through ACTION. Nobody is gonna do the work for me. And that’s how I relieve my stress— by DOING THE FUCKING WORK.